Happiness

What is happiness? Many people have a definition of it...depending upon how one lives their life. It may be the little things in life, or buying something-materialistic..whatever. But to me, happiness..right now extreme happiness is what I am right now. I have everyone in my life I could possibly ask for, and am happy to just be living and breathing.. I've been able to do the things I've wanted to do, surround myself with wonderful people. And am happy to be the person I am, I feel really blessed. Even in the saddest times when my grandpa died, I feel blessed and happy to been there to say good-bye. People may think I'm crazy to say I'm happy, happy most the time..but why wouldn't you be?? Your living, your breathing, your healthy, why wouldn't you be thankful!?!? Life is difficult a lot of the time, and is a major challenge maybe thats why you only get one. But people are always in this race, race to be better than so and so and they get so caught up..they don't see whats in front of them..its so simple. I had the most amazing talk with Steve tonight talking about life and things and relationships in life...I can't describe to you how that felt and how comfortable it is to have someone like that. That GETS you...that knows your goals and ambitions, and your priorities in life. Just works, and its beautiful. I couldn't be more happier about how my artwork and schooling is going, my work clicks and I'm confident..I needed a severe kick in the ass to get myself in gear. I cannot quit either, no matter how this drags on because my Grandpa is someone that would be displeased with that decision. I miss him terribly, but when times are tough I look to the sky and know he's there looking down on me-hopefully grinning from ear to ear. College is such a small chunk, but such a huge decision in my life-and it'll all pay off in the end. Just funny how the people in middle school would poke fun at me when I moved, would call me names and would make fun of me-I would go home and cry and yell at my parents for making me move. I hated them for it, because I didn't like not being liked. I cared about what people thought. Then I grew a tough skin..and then decided to get into motorsports. Way off the charts as to what a girl should be doing, but its what I wanted. I got made fun of for that by others in high school, but I didn't care. Fast-forward to now, those people are all fat, pregnant, alcoholics with no life. They have nothing for them but paycheck to paycheck...or living on welfare. I have schooling underneath my belt and soon to be degree..and a beginning of a modeling career. So I laugh at them, because I'M HAPPY. =)
=Jack